2 days before 2009 December 30, 2008

Before the year end, i usually write about the good and not so good experience for the whole year. The difference, last year i wrote it in a journal, now, here on my blog. Where anybody, everybody can read and comment =). As 2008 begins i have a lot of things to do. Most of them were set aside =(  (sad but true. . .) My career? stagnant as always. But,  i am grateful for there are a lot of people out there who are jobless.  I said i would be more adventurous, more daring, take chances, willing to take the risk. But still something is holding me back. Regrets? hmmmm… you could say i have a lot of it. I could have done better. I have cried buckets of tears, I am tough outside but  inside im breaking like hell.  People saw me as a happy go lucky type of girl. I never let them see how i break into pieces.  Sometimes they find me wierd, some don’t understand me. Well, I cannot please everyone. I AM JUST HUMAN.  I know i have done my very best as much as possible to all the things that i have done like my job, during the sportfest, board exam  (Arrrgghh!!!), my hobbies (although i haven’t written one good stuff for this year), my relationship with my friends ( sorry if sometimes i just don’t say a word, it’s not that i don’t like you guys it’s just that i need space, i need to think hope you understand), my family (who always keeps me sane =) ),Lovelife…? well, still waiting for you. I always joke around and tell my friends that i am waiting for a FIREWORKS , Funny thing is way back five years ago i told my close friends that i want to feel the  MAGIC of LOVE hahahahaha…. I thought i have felt that, but it only brings tears and sadness. It’s supposed to bring Happiness!!! Until late this year, my heart says i have found you, but are you for REAL?. Don’t left me hanging here. oH! I have a perfect song for you Stupid by Marie Digby (you know who you are =) ) My Health, i was sick at the middle of 2008, thank God i have recovered. This year I have created this blog Hurray!!! where i can show my emotions through songs ( i would really like to write more). There is so much i would be thankful for, so much to be grateful. I treat every problem as a challenge. It only makes me stronger. I don’t give up so easily.  I believe that good things are coming my way. So for now, Goodbye 2008, its time or me to do the things that i know would make me happy without compromising anything.